Always and Forever

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Journal Entry, Love, Poems, Poetic, Poetry, Writing

Tears swell up in my eyes

It’s almost to blurry to see

But it’s feeling him in my arms

When something overwhelms me

It allows me to see more,

More clearly than I have before.

 

I feel my eyes are opening,

Opening for the very first time in my life

What I see before me is a love like I have never known,

Love that flows right through me, it’s as piercing as a knife

From within this incredible emotions pours out

And it is then I just know without a doubt.

 

I try desperately to speak

To say everything I have wanted to say

But the words don’t come so easily

And I can only hope to find the right ones someday.

In this existence words beautiful enough seem as though they can be found never

So for now, I look into his eyes, soul to soul, and whisper that I will love him …

Always and forever.

 

Photo credit:  desires- andso-much-more.tumbler.com

 

 

Seize the Moment

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Journal Entry, Love, Love Poems, Poems, Poetic, Poetry, Seize the Moment, Writing

When I look at him,
I find my eyes cannot focus
Even though he is lovely enough to gaze upon forever

My eyes are restless,
For my attention given to anything for longer than a twinkling
Makes me cognizant of the passing of time
and the moment I have yet to seize.

Tides of Time

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Amateur Photography, Journal Entry, Jupiter, Love, Ocean, Picture, Poetic, Waves, Writings

Jupiter, FL

Not yet buried by the tides of time, into the raging sea of my memories is the recollection of a night that cut time and existence and left a splinter in my mind.

I cannot recall the entirety of that day, for it is meshed in with the simplicity of any other given day. But that night, ah yes, that stormy autumn night that brought the waves crashing back upon my shore, I cannot soon forget.

Slipping away from an embrace of midnight, I sat alone on the floor of a room in which I sojourn to escape from everything except my thoughts. It is there in obscurity with the candlelight licking my face and the moonlight gently kissing my body that my memories of him began to flood my mind.

I recalled how he at one time became my whole world and then quickly departed from it.

Journal Entry: 1999

Third Eye

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Art, Journal Entry, Photographer, Photography, Poetic, Poetry, Quotes, San Francisco, Wharf

What’s wrong with allowing myself to be free beyond everyone’s words and allowing myself to be looked upon through the eye of my intentions to not be seen?

Journal Entry: 1994 – 1995

Tainted Love

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Amateur Photography, Journal Entry, Love, Nude, Photography, Pictures, Poetic, Poetry, Tainted Love, Window, Writings

It crept into my life,
a sweet poisonous gas
gently seeping in under the door to my heart
and when I was looking away (for just a moment)
it slipped in through the window to my soul.

It became the only thing that surrounded me,
yet I wasn’t aware it was there at all.
I took in a little with each breath;
the feeling was unrecognizable
and before I could realize what was happening,
I was addicted.

It became all I ever wanted;
I would take in as much as I could
but it was till never enough.
It seemed to feed my feelings and emotions,
letting them grow beyond expectations
and then they withered away.

The poison suffocated me
leaving me gasping for something pure.
I was left no other choice but to open the window
and let it all go.

Journal Entry: July 1999

Devil in the Black Dress

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Cheating, Deception, Journal Entry, Miami, Mural, Poem, Poetic, Poetry, Urban Art, Writings, Wynwood, Wynwood Arts District, Wynwood Walls

I am an empty shell with no soul;

A soul that has been taken away

By a devil pretending to be an angel.

I was murdered by deception;

Deceived by the “angel” I trusted with my life

And let her take away.

I know now what is the truth:

That vixen

My angel

The devil in the black dress

Will always remain in my heart

And I will continue to pretend I don’t cry anymore.

Journal Entry 09-24-1996

Wynwood Walls Mural, Miami

A Fleeting Embrace

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Anna Shukeylo, Disappointment, Goodbye, Impulsive, Journal Entry, Lost love, Love, Mixed Signals, My Writings, Poetic

Goodbye by Anna Shukeylo

A follow up to The Edge of Happiness and Disappointment

Did I jump off before you got the chance to push me?

Was I scared to think you would actually do it?

I was confused; it seems like an easier way

I doubted it all for a second and realized maybe it was just me

I forgot to express all that I wanted to

I grabbed onto any little bit I could

Hanging there

Waiting to know if you would come back for me

Or just leave me there

Until

It all gave in and became apparent that you ignored my wanting

And had already walked away to find something

Anything

Except all that I was

I was on my way to where I knew I would always go

It just wasn’t home

And I would have to take the path there alone

Wandering, lost

You were now just a memory

A blink of an eye

A sweet kiss on the lips

A split second of this journey

A fleeting embrace of everything that life is

Journal Entry: 1996

The Edge of Happiness and Disappointment

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California, Cliff, Confusion, Disappointment, Edge, Journal Entry, Mixed Signals, My Pictures, My Writings, Ocean, Photography, Poetic, Sea

By: AT

Why does this confusion overwhelm me?

I’m on the edge of the plane of happiness terrified of falling into a pit of disappointment.

Wanting and wishing for someone to grab my hand and make me feel secure.

To bring me back from the edge, or just to push me off already.

To rid me of this fear, of this confusion.

I want to know where I belong, where I will end up.

 Journal Entry: 1996

Part 2: A Fleeting Embrace