Always and Forever

Tags

Journal Entry, Love, Poems, Poetic, Poetry, Writing

Tears swell up in my eyes

It’s almost to blurry to see

But it’s feeling him in my arms

When something overwhelms me

It allows me to see more,

More clearly than I have before.

 

I feel my eyes are opening,

Opening for the very first time in my life

What I see before me is a love like I have never known,

Love that flows right through me, it’s as piercing as a knife

From within this incredible emotions pours out

And it is then I just know without a doubt.

 

I try desperately to speak

To say everything I have wanted to say

But the words don’t come so easily

And I can only hope to find the right ones someday.

In this existence words beautiful enough seem as though they can be found never

So for now, I look into his eyes, soul to soul, and whisper that I will love him …

Always and forever.

 

Photo credit:  desires- andso-much-more.tumbler.com

 

 

Seize the Moment

Tags

Journal Entry, Love, Love Poems, Poems, Poetic, Poetry, Seize the Moment, Writing

When I look at him,
I find my eyes cannot focus
Even though he is lovely enough to gaze upon forever

My eyes are restless,
For my attention given to anything for longer than a twinkling
Makes me cognizant of the passing of time
and the moment I have yet to seize.

In Your Arms

Tags

Love, Ocean, Poems, Poetic, Poetry, Romance, soulmates, Writing, zen

When I look into your eyes, I wonder how deep is the ocean that lies within them?

I see reflections of tomorrows’ sky filled with the stars that are our dreams

When I listen to your voice, it echoes within my soul and I am lead into Zen

I hear the gentlest whisper that could calm my loudest screams

When I am with you, time transcends this lifetime and feels infinite like our love

At first perched on a branch of constraint, it now flies freely like a dove

When I feel your heartbeat, it pounds intensely from enchantment

With my head nestled on your chest, I listen to it play the most seductive song

When I lay in your arms, my heart sits wrapped in contentment

And I finally realize, this is where I will always belong …

in your arms.

                                                                                                      

Tides of Time

Tags

Amateur Photography, Journal Entry, Jupiter, Love, Ocean, Picture, Poetic, Waves, Writings

Jupiter, FL

Not yet buried by the tides of time, into the raging sea of my memories is the recollection of a night that cut time and existence and left a splinter in my mind.

I cannot recall the entirety of that day, for it is meshed in with the simplicity of any other given day. But that night, ah yes, that stormy autumn night that brought the waves crashing back upon my shore, I cannot soon forget.

Slipping away from an embrace of midnight, I sat alone on the floor of a room in which I sojourn to escape from everything except my thoughts. It is there in obscurity with the candlelight licking my face and the moonlight gently kissing my body that my memories of him began to flood my mind.

I recalled how he at one time became my whole world and then quickly departed from it.

Journal Entry: 1999

Tainted Love

Tags

Amateur Photography, Journal Entry, Love, Nude, Photography, Pictures, Poetic, Poetry, Tainted Love, Window, Writings

It crept into my life,
a sweet poisonous gas
gently seeping in under the door to my heart
and when I was looking away (for just a moment)
it slipped in through the window to my soul.

It became the only thing that surrounded me,
yet I wasn’t aware it was there at all.
I took in a little with each breath;
the feeling was unrecognizable
and before I could realize what was happening,
I was addicted.

It became all I ever wanted;
I would take in as much as I could
but it was till never enough.
It seemed to feed my feelings and emotions,
letting them grow beyond expectations
and then they withered away.

The poison suffocated me
leaving me gasping for something pure.
I was left no other choice but to open the window
and let it all go.

Journal Entry: July 1999

A Fleeting Embrace

Tags

Anna Shukeylo, Disappointment, Goodbye, Impulsive, Journal Entry, Lost love, Love, Mixed Signals, My Writings, Poetic

Goodbye by Anna Shukeylo

A follow up to The Edge of Happiness and Disappointment

Did I jump off before you got the chance to push me?

Was I scared to think you would actually do it?

I was confused; it seems like an easier way

I doubted it all for a second and realized maybe it was just me

I forgot to express all that I wanted to

I grabbed onto any little bit I could

Hanging there

Waiting to know if you would come back for me

Or just leave me there

Until

It all gave in and became apparent that you ignored my wanting

And had already walked away to find something

Anything

Except all that I was

I was on my way to where I knew I would always go

It just wasn’t home

And I would have to take the path there alone

Wandering, lost

You were now just a memory

A blink of an eye

A sweet kiss on the lips

A split second of this journey

A fleeting embrace of everything that life is

Journal Entry: 1996

The Immortal Beloved Letters – The Third Letter

Tags

Beethoven, Immortal Beloved, Immortal Beloved Letters, Letters, Love, Love Letters, Star Crossed Lovers, Tragic Love

Click here for: The First and Second Letter

The Third Letter

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us – I can live only wholly with you or not at all – Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits – Yes, unhappily it must be so – You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart – never – never – Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life – Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men – At my age I need a steady, quiet life – can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day – therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once – Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together – Be calm – love me – today – yesterday – what tearful longings for you – you – you – my life – my all – farewell. Oh continue to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

– L.

(Ludwig van Beethoven)

Credit: depositphotos.com

 

Immortal Beloved Letters – The Second Letter

Tags

Beethoven, Immortal Beloved, Immortal Beloved Letters, Letters, Love, Love Letters, Star Crossed Lovers, Tragic Love

Click here for: The First Letter

The Second Letter

Evening, Monday, July 6

You are suffering, my dearest creature – only now have I learned that letters must be posted very early in the morning on Mondays to Thursdays – the only days on which the mail-coach goes from here to K. – You are suffering – Ah, wherever I am, there you are also – I will arrange it with you and me that I can live with you. What a life!!! thus!!! without you – pursued by the goodness of mankind hither and thither – which I as little want to deserve as I deserve it – Humility of man towards man – it pains me – and when I consider myself in relation to the universe, what am I and what is He – whom we call the greatest – and yet – herein lies the divine in man – I weep when I reflect that you will probably not receive the first report from me until Saturday – Much as you love me – I love you more – But do not ever conceal yourself from me – good night – As I am taking the baths I must go to bed – Oh God – so near! so far! Is not our love truly a heavenly structure, and also as firm as the vault of heaven?

(Ludwig van Beethoven)

The Third Letter